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Back to my roots

19 Jan

I haven’t discussed New Year’s Resolutions on here yet because I wanted to address them as they come up over the course of the coming months. Now is a good time to talk about my #1:

Grow stronger in my faith and closer to God

There have been times in my life when I’ve felt extremely close to God and extremely spiritual. Not coincidentally, the most memorable times were almost always those of great struggle. I can remember being very faithful around the time of my Confirmation, during both of my moves to and from Colorado, and after my sister’s accident. I prayed all day long and constantly talked to God. Despite the personal strife, it was really fulfilling to have someone to talk to and really brought me great comfort. Eventually, as things got easier I stopped being so diligent in my practice. When I went away to Northeastern I started going to church on my own and that was the time that I really understood the Mass and appreciated it not only for the chance to grow close to Jesus, but also to feel a part of a community. Although I wasn’t particularly constant in my prayer, I remember that time in my life for helping me love the Sunday ritual.

Over the course of the coming year many new changes and challenges will present themselves. I will graduate college, travel to Spain for 5-6 weeks, and then move to Dallas in August. I do NOT want to wait until I need God for me to rebuild our relationship. Since the beginning of Advent I’ve been going to church regularly. This week and last week are the first weeks that I can honestly say I’ve been thinking about my faith during the week.

On two occasions I felt myself rise above and call on my Christianity to be a bigger person. I will not discuss the incidents because that defeats my purpose, but I will say it has to do with the interactions and feelings I’ve felt toward two people I don’t particularly care for. Our university Priest said this week that we don’t have to like everyone, but we must love them. I do not love these two people in the common use of the word, but I feel compassion and acceptance. A big step for me.

I believe that I can continue to grow and become a better and more loving person everyday. It’s a simple quest, but one that I know will not end this year.

I’ll be back soon will an easy recipe and more!

-Jul

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Guilt

8 Jan

For 3+ years now I’ve been harboring this guilt. I moderate my time at home with Sean so that I spend as much time at home and with my family was possible. Countless (probably thousands) of times I’ve told him that I shouldn’t hang out, or come over, or go to some party because I felt I should be at home when I’m home from college. I rationed that I spent time with him at school so I shouldn’t in NJ. Last night, my Mom questioned why I was home when I was supposed to be over at Sean’s watching a movie. I finally revealed my guilt. Now, I find it overwhelmingly awful that I’ve been doing that to myself for year! I told Sean this morning and he was not surprised. It’s what he’s been telling my for years now. UGH! He also mentioned another truth which is that I also used that guilt to get me out of some social situations that I was uncomfortable attending. Uncomfortable because I’m not an overall social person, not because they were bad situations. Wow.

It’s all true, of course. I spend most of my time doing what I think will make others happy and not looking out for my own best interests. I think in 2011 that needs to be a priority. I need to stop being a martyr and start communicating to other what I need and want. No one is going to thank me for the things I do and I don’t expect them too. Making myself happy first is the most important thing. It’s hard to even believe that after a lifetime of looking out for everyone else. I better start believing though or else the rest of my life will be filled with anger and resentment.

Heavy stuff for a Saturday morning, huh?

On the workout front, I attempted the ambitious feat of mixing in 5 miles of intervals (incl. warm-up and cool-down) into my P90x Chest & Back workout (with ab ripper). I definitely didn’t succeed but I did my best. I completed 3 miles in 28:37 and 1 complete round of Chest/Back, plus about 1/2 of the ab ripper workout… about 50% overall. I would be disappointed but I was just feeling hungry, a little shaky, and tired this morning.

To be SUPER cheesy and Tony Horton-like, “I did my best, now forget the rest.” *groan* 😉

I’m off to get some more coffee and window shop a little… doing 2 things that make me happy this morning.

thanks for listening,

Jul

2010 Running Reflection

8 Jan

Miles by Month

In 2010 I ran 8 races!

  1. March: Ocean Drive 10 mile race – with: Dad – 1:37:17 (9:44)
  2. April: Jersey Shore Marathon Relay – with: Dad, Kait, Chris – ran approx 6 mile and 1.5 mile legs
  3. May: Rumson Mother’s Day 5 Mile – with: Dad, Mike (Kiera Mom Tom and Billy did the walk) – PR! 42:21 (8:29)
  4. June: Avon 5K – with Sean – very hot and slow! 27:50 (8:59)
  5. August: Sea Girt 5k – with Dad – 26:36 (8:35)
  6. October: Boston Half Marathon – alone – PR! 2:00:51 (9:14)
  7. November: Born to Run 5 mile – with Dad, Jill – 43:12 (8:39)
  8. December: Jingle Bell 5k – with Olga – PR! – 26:00 (8:23)

What a FUN racing year! I ran the fastest races to date and with a lot of different people! I really do love running and racing and I hope to get faster in 2011! My final milage was 675 miles. I’d really like to hit 700 this year but with all of the travelling and moving I have NO clue what May through December will look like! Another fall 1/2 marathon would be fun though 🙂 Dad and I are running the Ocean Drive again- which I’m really excited about! I definitely want to run that one faster than last year!

Looking forward to another healthy and happy running year!

-Jul

 

A New Year

2 Jan

I’m not sure what it is, but I can’t seem to stay dedicated to this blog!! I ALWAYS think about things I should post about and remember but somehow, it just doesn’t make it to the computer…

I think there are a few reasons for this:

1. I love to read other blogs and “waste” so much of my free time doing so. I’m always running out of time!!

2. It sometimes feels like work to write a post- I feel the need to write creatively and/or post pictures! The simple answer to this dilemma is simply to stop blogging. The problem is, I really love having the documentation and space to share my thoughts. I think I just need to make it less of a “big deal” to post something. I just need to write and not stress about how good it is… story of my life!

Just like I tell my clients- they key to success in fitness is consistency. I’m going to go ahead and claim that it’s going to be the same in blogging.

A lot has happened in the past month that I haven’t captured so here are a few of my favorite pictures from the end of 2010!

Thanksgiving at the Goldstein's

Celebrated 4 YEARS!

Took a full-time job in DALLAS, TEXAS!

Went out with friends

Thanked my clients for a great semester!

Missed my flight to Boca 😦

Cooked and baked my heart out for a wonderful Christmas

Sean and I split Christmas events for the first time

Enjoyed a lovely Christmas morning 🙂

Shopped 'til I dropped!

I don’t have New Year’s Eve pictures yet but hopefully I can snag some off of Facebook soon!

I hope I continue this trend into the new year…. wish me luck!!

-Jul